20 something year old living in the valley of the sun. Coffee addict, tea junkie, yoga enthusiast, lover of fitness, and wine. Focused on living a healthy life, loving myself, and staying awesome! I also really love PIZZA.

I’ve been having really bad body image days this past week. I’ve been having a really hard time trying to snap out of it.
I have hardly any clothes anymore because I’m in between sizes and so shopping is a real struggle right now. I have like no clothes. I ordered some clothes online and they fit but I just feel uncomfortable and I’m just not happy with how I look in them.

I think I’m just tired. Tired of working so hard and feeling like I’m stuck. I feel like I’m making no progress sometimes and that can really start to take a toll on someone after awhile. I’m exhausted and I’m burnt out. I have to just keep going, I need to. I’m ready to stop feeling this way and I’m ready to stop being so hard on myself all the time.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

If you just got a follow from me on Instagram it’s because Instagram is weird and put you all on the suggested people to follow page. I’m not a creep.

Smiling because it’s a new day, I killed my workout this morning, and frosted flakes fit in my macros today!
Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, July 29, 2014
Check out those muscles you guys! I wish I would have started lifting sooner!

Check out those muscles you guys! I wish I would have started lifting sooner!

This mornings workout, 2 dollar Starbucks, and my bomb dinner!

I woke up determined to make today better than yesterday. My alarm went off at 4:30, I threw my clothes on and was out the door. I did 30 minutes of sprints and incline walking followed by chest and abs. My friend wanted me to go to the gym with her because she isn’t one for going by herself so I ended up up tagging along for moral support once I got off work.

I bought a tea before work this morning and Starbucks has their treat receipt going on right so I treated myself to a 2 dollar coffee and called it a day.

I needed a bigger dinner tonight to get my closer to hitting my macros so I whipped up a half of a sweet potato, 3 eggs with chicken breakfast sausage and peppers, and then some nine grain bread. Ugh so yummy.

ALSO THIS SONG?! Listen to it because it really hits home for me right now. So much power and feelings behind this song for me.
"You and me we got this, you and me we’re beautiful, beautiful" 

Monday, July 28, 2014

Pretending that I didn’t have a shitty day today and that I’m not upset, isn’t really working.

I’ve been eating yummy food all day and I can’t wait to be off work so I can go home and eat more yummy food and then crawl into bed and watch Netflix.

I was talking to my friend earlier and we were talking about me. About how I hardly have an ounce of confidence when it comes to guys. I’ve worked really hard trying to find myself and my inner beauty over these last couple years. I’ve grown a lot since then but when it comes to guys I always throw my guard up. I’m scared to put myself out there, which is getting me no where. This friend was telling me that the other day these two guys we work with were raving about how awesome I am. She explained that “guys like you, you just push them away with having your guard always up” in a way she’s right. I mean she is right. I’m scared of being rejected. I’m scared of not being enough for these possible interests so I put these guards up and don’t let anyone in. It’s hard to stray from old habits, I know that but I guess it’s just something I really need to work on.

Getting up this morning was THE.WORST. 
I had to practically pry my eyes open and my body felt like I got hit with a shovel. Needless to say it wasn’t pretty. I contemplated going back to bed but I sucked it up, put on my gym clothes and was out the door. 
Today started phase 2 of LiveFit so I did 30 minutes of the elliptical and strength trained my back. 
It felt great getting my workout over with but I am definitely struggling right now. 
I’m going to bed at 8 o’clock tonight. No shame. 
I’m also treating myself to either tea or coffee. My heart says tea but my energy levels say coffee. 

Happy Monday!

Getting up this morning was THE.WORST.
I had to practically pry my eyes open and my body felt like I got hit with a shovel. Needless to say it wasn’t pretty. I contemplated going back to bed but I sucked it up, put on my gym clothes and was out the door.
Today started phase 2 of LiveFit so I did 30 minutes of the elliptical and strength trained my back.
It felt great getting my workout over with but I am definitely struggling right now.
I’m going to bed at 8 o’clock tonight. No shame.
I’m also treating myself to either tea or coffee. My heart says tea but my energy levels say coffee.

Happy Monday!

Sunday, July 27, 2014

I’ve lost 5 pounds since I started tracking my macros! Also phase 2 of LiveFit starts tomorrow!

 
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