If you just got a follow from me on Instagram it’s because Instagram is weird and put you all on the suggested people to follow page. I’m not a creep.
Pretending that I didn’t have a shitty day today and that I’m not upset, isn’t really working.
I’ve been eating yummy food all day and I can’t wait to be off work so I can go home and eat more yummy food and then crawl into bed and watch Netflix.
I was talking to my friend earlier and we were talking about me. About how I hardly have an ounce of confidence when it comes to guys. I’ve worked really hard trying to find myself and my inner beauty over these last couple years. I’ve grown a lot since then but when it comes to guys I always throw my guard up. I’m scared to put myself out there, which is getting me no where. This friend was telling me that the other day these two guys we work with were raving about how awesome I am. She explained that “guys like you, you just push them away with having your guard always up” in a way she’s right. I mean she is right. I’m scared of being rejected. I’m scared of not being enough for these possible interests so I put these guards up and don’t let anyone in. It’s hard to stray from old habits, I know that but I guess it’s just something I really need to work on.
I’ve lost 5 pounds since I started tracking my macros! Also phase 2 of LiveFit starts tomorrow!